Thursday, December 16, 2010

A Peculiar Person

It's been a tough week. Every day I get closer to seeing the family that I haven't seen since May. Oh! This family ...

[We are all broken. We are all bruised, a little weary. We have all seen more of the world but also less of it than we'd like. We talk about a lot of things, and then some things we don't. We are in love with each other. We are family. Without my family, there is no such thing as home. ]

I think about Jesus every day -- how His days must have burned inside Him. How strange it must have been for Him to walk the streets and go about His work with so few knowing of His true identity. Did He ever feel like He could "be Himself"? I think it is awfully queer how much I care about being known and accepted for who I am, and worry about being too peculiar and irrelevant, when Jesus is my Savior. What a peculiar person He was. What an unknown and unacceptable man He ended up being.

Oh, but He was nothing if not relevant. I am suddenly surprised by the vast good fortune of being accepted into His family.

6While he was still speaking to the people, behold, his mother and his brothers stood outside, asking to speak to him. 48But he replied to the man who told him, "Who is my mother, and who are my brothers?" 49And stretching out his hand toward his disciples, he said, "Here are my mother and my brothers! 50For whoever does the will of my Father in heaven is my brother and sister and mother." (Mat 12)
I don't do that will so well (try EPIC FAIL!!), but thanks to my Brother, my Father accepts me. Asks me to be a little more peculiar.

I am so thankful for this season of waiting: contemplating His peculiar entrance into this weary, down-trodden world. This world where our Christmas Holiday hopes rarely come to life the way we'd envisioned.

For some really eloquent talk about the waiting of Christmas and how to redirect our holiday celebrations, check out Ann Voskamp's meditation here.


DRB said...

I struggle a lot with being "weird." I know I am weird, but cannot help it. Sometimes I wish I were weird enough not to realize that I am weird :) That desire you mention for acceptance and being understood seems so elusive when you see your own self as weird...

Lately, God has been comforting me in this regard--assuring me that He understands me better than I do myself, and that He loves me so fully and completely that I may never be able to comprehend it. This has begun to enable me to let go, very little by very little of the desire to be better understood by my fellow broken ones.

And I am finding that this liberty He is working in me is freeing me to love others better. He is redeeming my "weirdness," making it into holy peculiarity.

John the Apostle says,"perfect love casts out fear"(1 John 4:18). I am finding that Christ's perfect love doesn't merely throw out my fear, it actually crowds it out, takes its place, and overflows to others. Very peculiar...

zauberfisch said...

Some of us can't help but be that way.